I feel like I'm headed for a breakdown

I can't handle phone calls today. I'm being such a b*tch. I don't feel like small talk. Tell me what you want/need and let's be done with it. I want to scream/cry. Like this scene in Garden State. It seems so therapeutic. I'm not exactly sure of the reason for these feelings. Some ideas: 1) Exhaustion from the weekend and an extreme lack of desire to be at work right now 2) Disappoinment in my handling of a certain situation I'd rather not go into right now. Actually, I will go into it (that didn't take long). I've never been the type of person who does the hook up thing then expects a phone call. I know how it works. But I hooked up. And waited for the phone call. And am now disappointed by the end result. It makes me question the kind of person I'm turning into. I don't think I like it. I'm feeling bitter. It's a waste of energy to feel this way. I don't want to talk to anyone right now. The sound of people in my office conversing is killing me. Laughter is like someone hooking up electric shocks to my nipples. I just made myself laugh, that's good. How can I be bitter while smiling? Wait, wasn't that what I'm trying to avoid? Oy, confusion. I'm in a funk and I need to get out of it. I'm only eating a can of pears for lunch. The reasoning behind this is two-fold: 1) I'm out of food 2) I need to detox from all the crap I ate this weekend (buffet...need I say more?). Someone just asked me to fax something. I don't want to do it. I don't want to move. I want to close my eyes and drift away. Only 20 minutes until lunch. Maybe the second half of the day won't suck as much.
Reagan